Sunday, August 29, 2004Today was better off than yesterday, went out to get some fresh air - with fred n benson. At first I wanna go window shopping, then walk n walk to suntec. End up going to the conversational hall - last day of IT warehouse sales. Totally packed with ppl, things were going dirt cheap. I got myself a speaker, SHIOK man ! The speaker was quite awesome, though it's cheap - two speakers n a subwoffer. But I'm content with it, can burst my music :p I guess at least can have a gd slp 4 today.
Saturday, August 28, 2004I'm feeling really restless today, dun know why... maybe I stay at the whole day ba. Stayed at hm, wash some clothes, play hrs of game, chatted wif a friend, watch tv n do nothing. At least the conversation wif my friend was meaningful, found out alot things abt my friend. She also recommend me two songs, though it's chinese song but I still can understand.
What a boring day I had for today, as for tml... I dun know... my head is still spinning. Really missed those wonderful memories I used to have. I miss them so dearly that cant really describe in words... miss her... miss her presence... miss the smile... miss the fun... miss the joy n laughter...
Thursday, August 26, 2004Tml will be the last paper, DB... though it's a open book test but I didnt even bother to revise. Haha, I juz dun have the heart to study it at all. Juz feel like relaxing myself, dont wanna stress myself anymore. Feeling abit weak right now, trying to restore my energy n strength.
Sigh... need some motivation from ****, but it will not happen. Nevermind I got to live with it n go on. Well, soon it will continue on with me or the end of it.
Wednesday, August 25, 2004Yes, thats it... 2 more days n the end of the common test. Juz cant wait till friday, then I dun need to worry n need to spend time to study. Hope that I can pass all the modules, then I dont need to retake them. And hope my friends will pass all modules too. Gd luck to u guys.
So let the countdown begin... freedom here I come n returning to the 'old' han that I use to be.
Friday, August 20, 2004Yawnz... my mind, my body and my soul is still freaking tired. But I will continue what I need to do, there's many things for me to settle - even it takes my last breath. So I'm going hard on many things, so dun get in my way... or else u wanna get it from me.
There's no more Mr nice guy, being nice is doing me a disadvantage. It's time for Mr devil...
Thursday, August 19, 2004Until now I havent start studying for the coming common test. Sigh... this spells doom. I dun really got the heart to start at all, slacking and relaxing. Keep telling myself to start my revision but end up playing games, d/l songs and watch tv. Sigh, it's juz me - the lazy one. So no excuse for me, blame it on myself for being lazy and lazy and nothing but juz lazy.
Tuesday, August 17, 2004Day after day, nothing have improve. It's always the same or maybe worse, it' s juz hard for me to understand much of the things. Maybe I'm too stupid to understand or it's impossible for me to understand. I keep questioning myself, do I really exist or I'm totally nothing. U may say that I think too much, but I juz cant help it, this is how I feel about it and your actions have proven it. It had been that long and I'm going to explode... but I will still hang in there.
This past week, I have been losing my concentration over all things. Dont know whats happening, maybe I'm too tired of this ****. Tried very hard to relax myself which lead to neglecting assignments and cost my friend much of the pain. Sorry man !
