Thursday, January 13, 2005This few days had not been sleeping well, always dun wish to wake up at long. I have been leading my days aimlessly, I really wonder what am i doing... U might see me joke, chilling ard or looking alright... actually deep in my heart I'm feeling totally different. I dun know how to describe it, sometimes I really dun understand myself at all. I juz feel that i'm getting pin down by a big load of weighs and i cant breathe. Sometimes it really makes me detest some jackass that cause my problems. Wish to fuck them up but i become relented... and what they do... they avoid me totally. Dun get me to my nerves and know ur limit, i'm trying to be nice but being taken advantage.