Finally today was the last paper, have been waiting for this day to come. I had been like struggling to focus myself just to concentrate on the exams. Getting distracted and lost of interest were always the factors, but it's the past... now i'm able to catch my breath and throw off some of my stress.
Some thoughts have been circulating in my mind, therefore i like to let it out. Let me start off on my work, had been working there for ard 4-5 months... doing the same old shit all the time... always runner - i'm sick of it. Although i tell myself this, i'm still working there it because i'm earning a living over there. The people over there treat me reasonably well, that why i'm still staying put.
There has been a drastic change in my life. The journey that i have walked was so dreadful for me to endure myself and i'm still going through the after-effects. How i wish it was a dream and if possible i wish i wont be waking up from it, but i'm like trying to avoid it(thats not what i want.) Although i had been waiting forlornly for a change or even a end to it, i know it wont happen. Day to day, i will somehow worry about some stuffs. And most of the time i lead my life aimlessly but i had learn some important lessons. And i began to understand the reasons behind them, therefore i'm not longer have any aversion over it. Money matters are the main consent of mine, always having trouble over it. Blame it on my rush and stupidity actions that i have to worry about how i'm gonna pay the insurance premium monthly. My mum somehow always will bring up this matter, and i'm lost of words to quarrel back. There's a number of stuffs that i wish to own but it's like out of reach. Thats some constraints that i face but i will definitely make my way to reach out for it.
I have make up my mind, i wont bother anymore things before i have stabilize my life.
Wishing for a light to lighten my darkness
1:32 PM
